A new beginning...

 

 

Tonight I'm starting this new blog as a sort of new beginning. Let me try to introduce myself first. Lucie, 22 years old, just come back from 5 months in New Zealand. An experience through which I've met a lot of people, some nice, some not so nice (like every where in this world) and some who are unforgettable. Maybe I'm being a bit melodramatic, but who cares ! It's been a week since I've come back, and I don't want to forget these last few months. So let me be melodramatic !!! I just don't want to let it go.

This stay has also made me realise that I might not want to stay and work all my life in France, if any of it in fact. Let's just say that in order for this country to be really enjoyable, the first step French people would have to take is put a smile on their faces and stop whining. Hummm, stop there a second and think about it. Does that seem feasible to you ? Naaa, didn't think so either !

Anyway ! you will have noticed two notes posted before this one. They are notes I wrote on a forgotten piece of blog, and which I find have their place on this new blog. They talk about this boy I met in New Zealand, Aidan. I was told I didn't often talk about sex, and that when conversations came up to that subject, I tried to change the topic. I hadn't realised it, and I know that it's true. I'm a shy person who has difficulties getting the words out there. That doesn't mean that I have no life, or that I'm puritan. Not in the least. But now I know that I don't do that with everybody. There are people I talk to about my love and sex life. Unfortunately not that often because these people, whom I think are my really good friends, are not with me today. They're just not in my school, or in my country for that matter. They're just people I feel so at ease with, with whom I can relate to, and most importantly who will not judge me.

This last thing is important to me. I realised that I myself have stopped judging and talking about people behind their backs. I' ve adopted this "I like you /I don't like you - it stops there" kind of attitude, where I don't feel the need to rant about the people around. Let them live their lives, and I'll live mine. This doesn't mean I won't help my friends, or that I need prompting to go towards people. I just think that "Let them live is a good motto".

Motto ? What the motto with you ?... Hahaha, aren't we having fun !!!
For those whom the initials WTF came into your minds - Lion King, baby, Lion King...

One of the reasons I don't really talk about my life is that I feel like I'm putting myself forward, and that people don't really give a flying rat's ass about my life. As I said, I'm shy, but I'm also afraid that people will think I boast, and that a certain jealousy will settle in, or total misunderstanding which will lead to judgement. And I don't want to be judged. Because my story with Aidan is extremely complicated to explain and can lead to many judgements, even though between us it as ever so simple - Koha - Affection...

Well, there goes, congrats to those who managed to read it all - not sure if you're really interested, but felt I needed to get it all out there. Cos it's been in my head for a while now and I was tired of not being able to say it. Maybe the previous two note can give a little insight on my relationship with Aidan, if you care to know. If not, ah well !

Cheers people !